Patty (woodycakes) wrote,

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Anxious anxious me

So, I'm naturally an anxious person and I think it's coming to a head with me being stressed over work and also constantly feeling that I'm not doing enough or doing things the right way.

Though everyone at work has been nice and helpful, it still feels weird not knowing how to do things. I guess coming from a job that I had for four years -- I can't remember the time when I didn't know how to do things anymore. I'm sure I did at the beginning, but it feels like stakes are so much higher now.

When I say higher, I know that the worst thing that can happen is that I get fired (which I know is exaggerated but that's how I roll) but this time around, if I do get fired, I lose my employment pass which then means I lose my chance to live in Singapore and so I feel more pressured to make things right.

And it's silly because of course I'm not expected to know how to do everything just yet but at the same time, I feel like having worked for five years prior to this, I should have some sort of experience coming into this job even if it's in a completely different industry.

But that's just me. Being worried and getting myself sick from worry and feeling like I'm on the verge of puking half the time even if there's nothing to puke. I'll be okay, I know. I just have to be less anxious and less worried all the time.
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