Patty (woodycakes) wrote,

People Are Just As Happy As They Make Up Their Minds To Be

I read from Megan McCafferty's Jessica Darling series that "happiness is a choice." Jessica's grandma Gladdie told her this and it was brought up at Gladdie's funeral. Ever since I read it, it really stuck with me. It's a hard choice, but it's still a choice.

Then I read this month's affirmation from Kikki-K's Collaborative Happiness Project and it, too, says that we're just as happy as we make up our minds to be. And I have to say, lately, I'm not the most positive person around. In fact, I'm just downright negative.

Luckily for me, there's been some positive news on the work front, but I know I can't rely on positivity in the work place to keep me happy, because those are quite few and far between, so instead, I'll try to choose and be happier. Instead of dwelling on the negative -- which is my status quo -- i'll try my best to find the silver lining.

My brother, Pietro, is leaving for the US after graduation and though it makes me terribly sad to see another sibling go, I'm trying to be happy for him and know it's a new adventure for him and he'll be fabulous.

Work has been pretty rough and overwhelming and the routine is surprisingly getting to me, but on the bright side, brands of mine that weren't doing too well last year, are doing great this year. More work, yes. But it's expected. So let's focus on reaching targets.

I feel so disconnected from everyone, even when I'm with my friends physically, I still feel like I'm not there, not in the moment -- worrying about other things. I know, moving forward, I should feel grateful we have time to catch up and see each other after years of radio silence.

Speaking of radio silence, though things are fizzling out, and it sucks, I guess I can see this as a good thing -- as practice for what's to come. I shouldn't force things to be what they aren't, when really they're perfectly fine how they are.

So really, despite all the negativity, i consistently immerse myself in, I'm going to try. Try really hard to be happier. Choose happiness. It's harder than it looks.

Tags: beta man, college friends, employment, siblings
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