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It's funny cause this book has been lying around jamypye's bookshelf for ages. She read it a long time ago and that in itself is a feat as Pamy barely reads/finishes books (nowadays). Meaning this book must have been brilliant for Pamy to finish it in a decent amount of time.
Still, if it wasn't for the movie with Rachel McAdams coming out, I don't think I would have the final push to actually read the book. I guess I needed my love for McAdams to get me to read it. And no regrets. It was beautiful. _lexizzle walked in on me crying over it and needless to say he was kinda shocked to see his sister in tears at 2 in the morning over a book. I'm a softy, bring on the tissues.
Let's do a disclaimer and say that anything I say here will not make sense as I'm still in squeee/sadness mode over the entire thing:
- It amazes me how Audrey Niffeneger wrote this thing. It's a very convoluted love story and throw in the time travel and that makes it even more complicated and yet she makes me understand is so freaking easily. I literally want to bow at her feet because she masterminded this entire thing and I'm just floored.
To make something so science-fiction-y as time-travel as mundane and un-science-fiction-y despite the many mentions of dopamine or whatever really amazes me as it focused more on the human aspect of it. I still feel bad for Henry/Alba, though it's a really neat twist to the story.
"It's hard being left behind. (...) It's hard to be the one who stays. "
- Henry DeTamble. Goodness. He's going up on the list of fictional men I would want. Right up there with Marcus Flutie (who I promise to write about, but haven't gotten around to), Mr. Knightley, Luke Brandon, and oh yeah, Edward Cullen. But really, I felt for this man because in spite of the fact that he kept leaving Clare behind, you could totally see how he was tortured about it and it wasn't something he wanted.
He could have done so many 'bad' things, with his ability and yet all he wanted to do was good. I love how the only time he used to lottery trick was to get Clare a bigger studio. The things he did was all for Clare. Thus it broke my heart when he found out about his death and was trying his best to not Clare know. It also really made me cry when he lost his feet. I swear, I didn't know how many tears I had left because I was just bawling.
I was so scared for him when he had the frostbite and when he was trapped in the Cage. I knew something horrible would happen in that cage and I'm just glad he was able to get out. But most of all, it sucks how he kept going back to his mom's death. That just gets to me. When he finally 'died' on New Years Eve, I was just choking it back because I was afraid of staining the book with my tears. Horrible. I wish he didn't have to die.
"I hate to be where she is not, when she is not. And yet, I am always going."
- Clare Abshire. Woman, you are the poster-girl for martyrdom and yet she never griped about it. Clare is a complicated woman (and I was so imagining Rachel in the part) and the way she handled herself with a man like Henry was just astounding. Her debates with herself over free will and all were really interesting to me because how indeed would she have a 'choice' when Henry was sort of telling her her future already.
The ouija board part freaked me out and at the same time it was really amazing how Henry was spelled out. I also loved it that she was hurt when Henry told her that he was married in the future and she was hoping it was her. Of course, her devirginization to Henry was pretty swell. I have to say the amount of sex in this book is refreshing. Most chicklit I've been reading have a fade-to-black and I love me some 'making love' (I can't believe I said that, but those don't do, have to read about it, okay?!) and I salute Niffeneger for treading the line between smut and lemons. Please devirginize me too Henry.
But really I felt for Clare when her mom died and when they kept trying to conceive and it just wouldn't work out. I can't imagine having ONE miscarriage and she had six. Goodness. I also can't get over the fact that a Henry from the past was the one to get her impregnated while present!Henry slept beside her. Ménage à trois much?
I love how she supported him through his amputation by giving him wings and how she came out and told him about Gomez (who I imagine to be a sleazeball) and how she felt ultra guilty about it. That's why it hurt when she gave into Gomez after Henry had died. I can't even fault her cause woman was in pain. In the end, when she couldn't function after his 'death' and how her art wasn't coming along until she read his letter to her to tell her not to wait but that they would meet again was just so so so very heartfelt and I was just bawling again. When they did meet in the final chapters, I was just letting the tears flow. Damn you Niffeneger for making me so sad!!!
"Now I wait for Henry. He vanishes unwillingly, without warning. I wait for him. Each moment I wait feels like a year, an eternity. Each moment is as slow and transparent as glass... Why has he gone where I cannot follow?"
- Obviously Henry/Clare is an epic ship that will go right up there with my favorites like Marcus/Jessica and Edward/Bella because their love really does transcend time. The way Niffeneger always mentions the 'here and now' really moved me because Henry felt he was never in the present or never appreciating the present because he was always so hyper aware when he was time traveling really got to me. Even if I don't travel, it got me thinking about living in the present.
I loved their wedding and when Clare was preparing for his birthday. And when Henry met Clare's family or when Clare met Henry's dad. Their house-hunting adventures were also hilarious. They're just so perfect for each other.
"It comes out so quietly that I have to ask her to repeat it: “It’s just that I thought maybe you were married to me.”"
- At first I felt bad for Alba, the mini-Henry time traveler, but then I realized that at least she gets glimpses of her dad in the past when she does get to time travel. I just feel bad for Clare and how she's always left behind.
"Clare, I want to tell you, again, I love you. Our love has been the thread through the labyrinth, the net under the high-wire walker, the only real thing in this strange life of mine that I could ever trust. Tonight I feel that my love for you has more density in this world than I do, myself: as though it could linger on after me and surround you, keep you, hold you."
- Gomez can be a sleazeball but he does have his redeeming moments. I also felt for Charisse when she was desperate enough to ask Henry about her future with Gomez. All the side characters too had so much depth. Kimy and Henry's dad and Alicia and Etta and Nelle and just about everyone contributed to the really really amazingly fantabulous love story Henry/Clare had.
"Time passes and the pain begins to roll in and out as though it’s a woman standing at an ironing board, passing the iron back and forth, back and forth across a white tablecloth.I obviously have so much more to say but I can't think of anything at the top of my head right now. I'm hopeful that the movie lives up to the book, or at least does a good interpretation of it. I'm loving Rachel as Clare and though my opinion may be unpopular, I'm really hopeful for Eric Bana as Henry.
Re-watching the trailer now makes me all choked up because it's all even more heart-wrenching now that I know the books. I doubt there'll be as much sexing in the movie, but hey I think I can handle that for now. Amazing book, obviously. Definitely going up on my list of favorites ever.