Patty (woodycakes) wrote,

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When I Grow Up?

Tuding is Back!!!
Tuding is Back!!!Photo taken by me
They say that you can choose your friends, but you can't choose your relatives. But even if Tito Dennis weren't my relative, I'd still choose him to be my friend, because he's just super fab!

I'm closer to my relatives on my mom's side just because most of them are here. But recently, everyone's been leaving for the States or elsewhere that it feels like we're the only ones left behind. This is why I'm so happy that my mom's brother and sister, Tito Dennis and Tita Lilet are coming home for my lola's birthday this Saturday. This is the first time in a long time that we're complete!!!

Point of this entire entry is, Tito Dennis has always been one of my favorite people ever because even if we don't see each other often, when we do, he totally makes sense all the time without being preachy or condescending. I really know that he's looking out for my best interests.

Which leads me to what got me thinking. He asked me what I had planned to do after I graduated in April (cross your fingers). He said that he wanted to help me with whatever it was, but I had to have a clear, specific list of things that I wanted to do. So I stood for there a few minutes wondering what the hell I was going to answer him. What did I want to do after college?

And the answer is, I have NO IDEA what the hell I want to do. I'm so focused on just graduating (finishing my thesis, not getting into trouble with authority) that I'm not even thinking about what I want to do after I do get that elusive diploma.

I'm in a course that is supposed to lead me into something broadcast-related (television or radio). This means, I either get into a radio station or a television network. One thing's for sure, I'm not cut out for news and current affairs. I'm just not interested in writing about news especially not Philippine news.

I already had my internship at the radio station and that was fun, but being a DJ isn't an easy job and I saw how hard it is to keep audiences interested. I don't want to be a technician and I cannot be a writer for AM radio either. So that scraps radio out too.

Then there's television and although that sounds appealing, I don't know if I really want to get into the television industry. If I do, I'd choose entertainment over news again and that doesn't really leave me a lot of options. Obviously, I am not clear on what I want to do with my life. I know I'm only 21, but I'm already 21 and I still don't know what I want to do.

Tito Dennis said I should know what I want so I can work on doing what I want. I still have 283 days left of senior year so that gives me some time to think things over. I hope I figure out what the hell it is I want to do because I don't want to be that clueless, lost graduate in 283 days.

But for now, I'm going to enjoy my 14 days with Tito Dennis before he leaves for New York again because despite having to think of what I want to do in the future, I want to enjoy the present too. Still, it doesn't hurt t plan ahead. 283 days is going to go by so fast and I hope I'll have a clearer image of what I want to do by then. I'm curious... Am I the only one who has no idea what I want to do after college?
We're laughing every other mintuew with Tuding!Photo taken by me
Two days (well a couple of hours each day) with Tito Dennis has been so much fun. I've been laughing my ass off that my sides hurt! It's like an ab exercise, except we're munching on food at the same time, so all this working out (laughing) is futile.

For a few hours each day, I forget all the drama and negative energy, just because Tito Dennis's positive energy is so infectious! I wish he could just be here 24/7 instead of for a few days every few years. I can't wait to hang out with him again tomorrow before class. More laughter, less emo-ness.
Tags: dreams and goals, more family
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