Assistant Director to Loren: Okay, so I kept time and things were smooth during rehearsals, but when it came to the actual production, things were getting messed up so badly, I got yelled at by our professor -- which surprisingly didn't make me cry. Go Patty! The floodgates have been controlled. I'm not proud for fucking up, but I'm proud this didn't elicit an entire crying jag.Over all, I definitely learned a lot. Sir was really constructive in his criticism and there's so much to improve on. I just wish I could have been a better crew member for my classmates today. I definitely have to work extra harder next time to make up for it.
Technical Director to Tiffany: Things were again okay during rehearsals. In fact, if I didn't space out (NOT GOOD), things were pretty good on my end. Except I totally spazzed and didn't FADE OUT on cue so not good. I feel terrible. And I do apologize, but that's not going to take anything back. Still, this isn't to say I'm the ONLY ONE causing the fuck ups, but I still feel responsible.
Floor Director to Meg: I felt best at this. Sure, my voice was a little too loud, but I didn't feel like I fucked this one up. I cued the talent and was able to make things go a little smoother on the floor. Pamy attributes my success to the unconscious devotion to Butch the floor director at Philippine Idol. I think she's right.
Camera 1 to Len: Usually Camera 1 is for the graphic cards, but because I'm lucky, I get a combination of graphic cards and the talent, which isn't easy. Although everyone probably can pull it off, I can't seem to do it. I mess up so badly, Sir comes to the floor and yells at me. Lovely. But take note, I still don't cry. Patty's getting stronger.
Camera 2 to Laksh: I also get a combination of graphics and talent here, and I'm sure I messed it up somehow. But at this point, everyone was really very confused, so I'm sure I wasn't the only one feeling like we totally did things the wrong way.
Talent to Tiffie: I felt most awkward about this, because I don't like being in front of the camera. Especially when I'm wearing a barely there dress. Still, I'm glad sir doesn't pay much attention to the talent, because I probably screwed that up too. I really don't like being in front of the camera, and I'm sure it showed. The lights were really hot too.
Spinner to Panx: My last job for the day, I would say I didn't do terribly. I just wasn't sure of what I was doing because things were much crazier on the floor and I wasn't given much attention. But that's no excuse obviously, as I'm supposed to know what I'm supposed to do.
Though I messed up, I'm really proud that I didn't cry today. It seems petty, but I cry at anything and everything and getting yelled at is definitely in that list of reasons for my tear ducts to release those tears. But today, I didn't. So if just for that, go me.
I'm waaaay nervous now for MY production next week. I'm far from over making the script but I know it's going to be simple. Thing is, Sir expects more from the last producer (ME), so there's a little bit of pressure. Still, I'm going to try to keep cool on this one.