July 31st, 2005

emma; only girl in the world

Quite Obvious

There's something about me and the word subtle. Somehow, I can't seem to act anywhere discreet. Ever. When I talk, it's loud. When I attempt to whisper, it's even louder. All my actions tend to get exaggerated, and still, I'm doing it normally. This is why, when I get embarrassed, it's even more obvious.

Yesterday, after the game (Great game by the way to the Ateneo Blue Eagles, they were really good), Pamy, Tasha and I went over to Gateway. I've never been there, and of course, we were getting lost. All we wanted to do was go to Fully Booked (so what's new?). They say when you least expect something, it'll happen. Boy, was I shocked to bump into him. I hadn't seen him since two summers ago, and I seriously wasn't prepared.

No, this guy is no asshole. And in fact, he's quite the opposite. So, it wasn't that I didn't want to see him, I just didn't want him to see me, looking like shit (it was post-game and I had been screaming my lungs out). Of course, since I did like him at one point in my life, it was nice to catch up, even if it was just for a few seconds. And considering he didn't watch the game, he was being really nice about our unfortunate loss.

Saying goodbye, and at the same time, losing our bearings, I scoot over to the elevator and try to hide myself, because I am most probably blushing (though I don't think it's reallly seen thanks to my skin tone). That's until Pamy tells me he's looking in our direction, as he got on the escalator to the next floor.

NOOOOOOO!!! If I wasn't obvious enough that summer when I'd see him everyday, now I'm pretty much found out. And that is just way too mortifying. He might think I've liked him ever since that summer, which is so not true, as I got over him as easily as I liked him. And it wasn't even a major crush. It was a just a summer thing. Still, I can't help but think how stupid I could have been. I should been the master of cool. But obviously, I was just the opposite -- very un-cool about it.

Tasha tells me guys are dense anyway, and I shouldn't worry about it. And honestly now, that I've woken up from a very refreshing sleep, and realize I've got a ton of crap to do for school, I'm not even that worried anymore. And stil, I can't help but think that I'm already found out.

Well, it's not like this hasn't happened before. I'm just so freaking obvious -- and it shows.
emma; only girl in the world

July : You on My Mind (Swing Out Sister)

Friends say I'll get over you soon
Thoughts of you come back to fill me with gloom

Time forgets but I'm not over you yet
There's no sense of asking why
Until the tears run dry

There's no one but you on my mind
Searching for a perfect ending that we'll never find

If we could make it work this time

Years have flown by since you've been gone
This broken heart of mine's been waiting too long
All alone without you I can't carry on
There's no sense of asking why
Until I'm there by your side

We could plant tomorrows dreams now together
In a garden to last forever more
All the flowers would grow
From the seeds we'd sow...

I could be there by your side
If you would only change your mind
If we could make it work this time

I used to hear this at my grand aunt's house in the early nineties. And it was such a fun song, like the Bananarama ones. Then I forgot all about it, till I heard The Company do their own rendition, and I liked the song all over again. It did stand competition thanks the Josh Kelley's tribute to Queen, but Swing Out Sister prevailed in the end. Here's to the nineties.