July 12th, 2004

emma; only girl in the world

Sneaking on samurai jack

Apparently, I can get into the internet during Computer class. Sure, I don't know if it's legal, but hey, does sir really care? I don't know how long this is going to last as sir is probably going to cut the internet connection when things get really good for me, but maybe I can type faster and not worry about what he's going to do and instead just type my heart out.

We have a Trig quiz and a CL quiz in a few hours and I am nowhere near ready. Why? Instead of studying last night and during the weekend, what did I do? I read Kingdom Come thanks to Direk Carlo and I went out with my family.

Do I regret them? Well, sort of. I want to go out. I ♥♥♥ going out with my family, especially when I'm not paying for anything, but the guilt is sinking in now, because I am not prepared for quizzes I probably won't pass anyway.

I have to go as Sir is giving me the evil eye and I am afraid that I might turn into chopped liver when sir turns into Samurai Jack mode.
emma; only girl in the world


I have to say that my plan of action this year is living for the weekend. That's all I ever do. Wait and count down the days till I can finally wake up late and not do anything. Sure, I'm supposed to be doing something really, like school work and all that jazz, but obviously, I'm not doing any of those things. In fact, I have a Trig test tomorrow and I'm still not studying. I promise I will later, but hey that's still later.

I totally bombed my first Physics session test. Wonderful! Just joyous! So much for getting the Mercury Drug Award at graduation. Not that I really had my eyes on it, I know my limitations, but I know that my mistakes were because I didn't study! Grrr... regret really does come in the end. Tonight, I promise I will study for Trigonometry. I'm not really fond of logarithms even if it's just a review. I'm not exactly the biggest math fan on earth.

I should be a nerd now. I should be in love with studying. The problem is, Sir Joey was telling us about the UPCAT this morning and now I'm getting really paranoid. I really want to get into UP. It's the University of the Philippines or nothing. Yes, I am pressuring myself, but it's a scholar of the country, or I don't know what I'm going to do with myself at all.

The thing is, I haven't been reviewing as much as I'd want to for the stupid entrance exams. The UPCAT is less than a month away and I can already feel the butterflies in my stomach. In fact, I feel really nauseous already. I feel really guilty for wasting so much time not studying. This is my future after all we're talking about. It's where I go to college. The college I've been dreaming of for like forever.

So now, I vow to dig up my old reviewers which have already gathered dust since the last time I touched them. I am going to review for the UPCAT and all those entrance tests and I'm also going to get my act together in school. Yes, from this moment, I'm going to be a reformed girl. Let's see how long I can pull it off.