Patty (woodycakes) wrote,
Patty
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Everybody's Changing and I Still Feel the Same

In a few hours, I'll be legal. I can watch R-18 flicks without feeling any guilt (though, I never do). I can get pissed drunk (not that I'd want to). I can get married with parental consent (not that there are any proposals). I can do so many new things, and yet I feel the same.

Still, the same awkward child who can't fit into her clothes due to more curves (thank you puberty and ice cream). Still the same girl who feels inferior to the Rockwell Girls and secretly wishes she were one of them. Still the same girl who wakes up late, only to find the school bus already in front of her house and still hasn't showered. Still the same girl who manages to fall asleep anywhere, even the chapel. Still the same girl who wishes she could sleep all day and not worry about anything like Talaban. Still the same girl who would rather eat than shop for clothes. Still the same girl who crams all her IW on the last day despite claiming to be organized. Still the same girl who dances to Britney and sings along to Hilary Duff, yet can appreciate music from her dad's collection of far out jazz artists.

Still the same internet-crazed girl who can spend over 12 hours online without accomplishing anything. Still the same girl, who happens to be dependent on her family and friends, and would gladly walk on broken glass for them. Still the same girl who would rather crochet and make notes on post it for her friends instead of take down notes. Still the same girl who comes up with the most far out code names for the undeserving, unattainable crushes she gets. Still the same girl who makes up crazy fantasies complete with wardrobe for the characters and dialog to boot. Still the same girl who feels left out at times and wishes she could fit in just right. Still the same girl who feels attached to her pink jug from Grade 3.

Still the same girl who just wants someone to sweep her off her feet. Still the same girl who wants to have a stimulating and un-contrived conversation with someone on the same wave length. Still the same girl who wants to be asked out and feel special and beautiful. Still the same girl who wishes he would have the guts to initiate it all, without having the need to impress him.

So, I'm still the same girl as I was and as I probably always will be. In a few hours, I'll be a year older, but really nothing much is going to change.

except my age on Friendster!!!
Now, I really am going to be 18

Tags: my birthday
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