I try to keep a positive attitude about things, but I just can't do this anymore. I got home yesterday and my little sister was lying down on her trundle bed with a dextrose stuck up her arm! She's only eight years old for crying out loud and she's already had a needle poked into her skin! I've never had that! She's underweight and has been sick for two weeks! She refused to be absent from school too! What a weirdo. I guess I feel sorry for her, but it's just weird because she's supposed to be young and healthy. Now, my mom seems like she's going to get sick too because she's the one staying up to take care of Paola.
After watching the THE film on child birth and after seeing my mom going through all this crap, my heart is even more decided on not wanting to get married and having kids! Of course there are upsides to it, but the downside is the one weighing inside my head. Am I really capable of loving someone that much that I am willing to sacrifice so much for that person? Right now, I don't think so.
So here I am, wondering how the crap I'm going to go home tomorrow after doing all the school stuff I have to do on my supposed FREE day. Sometimes, the ironies of life really get to me.