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These past few weeks have been an emotional bit for me and I'm honestly just a mess inside. I can't put it down on paper or type it out without rambling like a maniac. So instead, I took this from earnmysong so ask away!
So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious but you have no idea about, or something obscure you just have to know. Ask away. All topics, within reason, are open for discussion.
 
 
Patty
18 May 2016 @ 12:32 am
I've been playing catch-up all month of May and mostly because I think I've been in denial. Denial is the first step, I know so the rest will come my way. For now, it's still not sinking in (though we near it, day by day) that by the end of the month, two of my friends will be gone. But I'm still in denial so instead, here I am catching up on LJ entries.

Because checklists and reminders and scheduling events on my calendar are honestly the things that keep me going. If I don't have this order or reminder or whatnot in my life, I don't know how I'd manage. And even though this is another check off my list, it's always a fun entry to do. So here goes + + +Collapse )

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Current Music Marian Hill - Got It | Powered by Last.fm
 
 
Patty
Work days are always pretty monotonous when it comes to trying to take photos of it. But I'm trying my best to mix it up and take different parts of the day and trying to make the day less 'my office desk' and 'my bedroom' but of course that couldn't be avoided. Here's a glimpse into my 12th of May -- it was a Thursday and it wasn't bad at all.

Guidelines
  • Take 12 photos on the 12th of each month
  • Post the pictures chronological order
  • Indicate the time, location, and a small comment
  • Taken from Chad at 12 of 12
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    I feel like this Keane lyric from ten million years ago still holds true to this day. I know I've definitely used it as an LJ entry from a bazillion years before and I've used it multiple times but it's just so appropriate.

    I've been pretty open about my work struggles and how I've been pretty frustrated and this month, two of my closest colleagues (whom I consider super close friends) have resigned and are moving to Vietnam at the end of the month. This is all pretty disheartening and feels like the cherry on top of my work sundae but I'm trying my best to pull through. Even though not very successful at it.

    My boss has talked to me about my attitude and how I'm definitely more negative than when I started a mere year ago and it scares me that I'm turning this way so soon into the job. It took me four years in my old company to get to toxic levels and it's only been a year and i've reached it so soon.

    So yeah, I'm trying to be better. and I'll keep trying to be more grateful. Sayaka sent me this video and I clearly picked up the wrong message from the video but I'm literally the opposite of charming and attractive these days, with all my bitching and whining and complaining and blaming and fearing and worrying. So yeah, knowing is half the problem, I suppose. I should now do something about it.

    I need all the positive vibes though because i'm in a pretty dark and negative place and I don't like feeling this way. I hope your moods and temperaments are all vastly better than mine.
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    Current Music Jean-Yves Thibaudet — Leaving Netherfield | Powered by Last.fm
     
     
    Patty
    30 April 2016 @ 11:20 pm
    April was another pretty crazy month. With just 30 days (one short than the 'usual'), I'm surprised I managed to get so much socialisation going on. I'm surprised at how outgoing I've become -- not necessarily by choice but because I literally just say yes to anything I get invited to. And April, had a lot of yes moments. Read more...Collapse )

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