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How is already more than halfway through July? I still stand by the time moves so fast and yet so slow adage that really doesn't make sense to anyone else but me. The second half of the year has proven to be off to an intense start and I really don't know what to expect out of 2016 anymore.

what about you guys? what's on your reading list? What are you listening to? What are you watching? What are you looking forward to? Tell me everything! + + +Collapse )

 
 
Patty
So it was one of those 12ths of the month where I totally forgot to message mellowdee but she managed just fine on her own. meanwhile, I did not manage so well. I totally forgot to take photos during the day and I'm glad I just found time to take photos for a bit.

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    Patty
    06 July 2016 @ 12:28 am
    We're more than half-way through the year already and July and looking back on my resolutions from January, I'm pretty good on some and not great at all on others. I guess, those are always pretty lofty when you write them out and realise at the end of the year that they were totally unattainable.

    So here's a stab at trying to self-check half-way through the year, what I still need to work on further. Read more...Collapse )
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    Patty
    30 June 2016 @ 01:09 pm
    June heralds the end of the first half of the year and also a shit ton of goodbyes -- to varying degrees of permanence, depending on how you look at it. Still, it was a good month. I don't understand how I can be so blessed and feel more grateful for the life I live more and more everyday.

    There are tough days, there are lots of those but there are also good days and good things happening and though they may be eclipsed by the not so great things, June wasn't bad at all. Read more...Collapse )

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    Patty
    24 June 2016 @ 08:33 pm
    I haven't had to deal to with death too many times in my life and for that I'm grateful. Sure, I lost my grandfather when I was 3, but I was barely a thinking human. I've lost friends and relatives and the nearest, most recent one would have been my aunt a couple years back. So hearing that my grandma isn't doing to well -- and is on her way to her deathbed -- is a pretty heavy feeling.

    As unfair as it sounds, between my two grandmas, I grew up closer to my maternal grandmother (my paternal one being far away in the US). We'd spend summers in her house. She was very present as I grew up and I saw her soften from a stricter figure to one that let her silly grandkids joke and chide her.

    over the years, she's been getting weaker (with age) and i've been in constant denial that she would get better or that it's just a phase. It's weird because one moment she was ok and then next, so fragile.

    And now with her stroke, it's clear that this will be her last days. It makes me very sad to lose her but knowing that we spent a really good life with her and have had many crazy experiences comforts me. We've said our goodbyes and we'll be spending time with her on her last days, but it's weird knowing this is the end of her physical life.

    I know she'll be with me wherever I go (and I definitely picked up a lot of her ways) but it'll be odd to not be able to greet her on her birthday or see her over the holidays or send her postcards when I travel. And still, I'm happy that she'll no longer be suffering and she won't be in pain. Death is so tricky and I can't imagine how my mom feels.

    So pardon my absence on the flist and my silence and sappiness. I'm still reeling.
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